Sabrina,

_My mind told me - jotting down some thoughts to share... when you entered into my life something changed, and it shouldn’t be this difficult to letting you go. I guess time ain’t been doing too good a job healing lol..I suppose an unwillingness to change paths is an unwillingness to allow things to get any better.. so does wishful thinking, and all the while d from a more serious discussion. I am a drug addict. Damn..never thought iI'd be writing that down. Can you tell my thoughts are all over the place..how fucked up this shit has gotten me. Also sucks when iI'm trying to explain to a girl who’s only experience with addiction is from watching intervention. Self pity can really disguise itself sometimes..iI don't know how to get a hold of things,,t. The saddest part is iI'm not even sure iI want to anymore..iI sit here in my bubble waiting for a miracle day after day, as if it will all just magically go away. I think about you and whether you're in any pain. ,,iI miss you all the time. I love you all the time. You need a man. Something that iI've feallen short of being.