The positive affecteffect provided by my parents was limited in my early childhood. I have developed as the social withdrawal described by the ambivalent attachment (Main & Solomon, 1990). I feel like I am always an observer but not a participant. Although I look calm and sometimes unresponsive and look away from people’s eyes, the truth is I would rather be silent or invisible because I am scared. Adults thinkthought I was good and independent. But, but actually I was just playplaying safe as a compliant, and followfollowed every single words by themword they said. I gave up easily. Whenever I feel I cannot master the skills, I quit. No exploration and I cling to my mum. I always played alone because I am anxious in joining groups, even my siblings and cousins, and I still struggle as a mature adult now.